Really nice and perfect right now.  Am sick with a body flu and quite disrupted and physically out of it and mentally wooooh and emotionally ehhhh, so yeah, it's nice to feel that I'm safe.  That and my humidifier and tea.  So nice....

I think the universe has sorta reborn my belief in myself and my abilities, as well as the potential for the universe to be a magical, creative place.  I think I got bogged down in thinking things had to line up the way I was told they should, or the way important people in my life claim it should, and I was feeling off and out of balance and just stuck without a source of real power to act or make change.  Then, randomly, after the new year, I think after a trip to Mexico, I felt different.  My friends started encouraging different beautiful things (though they always do that, I think there was just a shift in my optimism), and though I was no pessimist before, any vestiges of doubt or frustration stopped being so darn hard to just let go of.  Not that I don't have huge moments of fear and doubt and sadness and WTF?ness, but there is just generally a larger sense that we are all creating a better world for ourselves and those around us.